from Insert Coin
by Joshua Zelesnick
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the drone operator flies along
the pathway of a dark wound
never treated, today is about
remembering those who died
the lightness of their hands, soft
sounds, utterances from there
to here, promises kept along
the way, and passages squeezed
through, the dusty edge
where the world explodes
again and again without even
a discussion, in the morning
~
the operator refuses
the bonus, points upward and says
what level is this, below the clouds
there’s a bubbling of
whirr sounds! could be an attack
so which way to go when nowhere
when god damn you! this is
the mirror level!
images appear then
disappear, cling on, laser
accurate penetration
to the soul, shaped like an eye
~
good banking is good citizen
shipwrecked without a safety boat
again, and the waves are almost
too much to take a look at me
my bobbing ears, I’m not
in the drone, my heart drenched, filling
with soggy future, its bell gone
deaf in its place, just a humming
cover my head and force me where
heroes get too big to fall, I
could only win when I climbed back
down the stalk to earth, no more
~
terror as an assembly line
refrain, who looks in and who
looks out windows screens is actually
only one way of looking, OUT
how to look back into the camera
becomes the subject of the new
documentary series, a scream
like script I am hinting at, banks,
exxon, teledyne, et al. don’t give
a damn about you, just push murder
paper around all day, we say here
a coup, there a coup, clicks into place
~
I confess to you my sins
petal-shaped around the edges
as a way to escape
my big and ugly center
what happens when the risks
are entirely one-sided
keeps repeating in my head
can hear the stone and dirt collapse
glass from windows all of it
scratch into each other
until finally a pile, as if
an asteroid drifts by, wipeout